well all my vehement complaining came back to bite me... hard... i got called into the office and chastised for my complaining... you would think at my age and with all that i've been through, i would know better... but i swear i just can't help it sometimes... my brain is just so messed up... the demons aren't going to win though... i refuse to roll over and bow to them... i bow to only one now and i trust in Him alone and serve Him alone... praise God!