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Speaking about being spoken to, I really get tired sometimes in ministry. Sometimes I just feel like quitting. I asked God why I had to keep going to The Refuge because lately, I feel like I’m just nit needed there. I’m also caught up in thinking people are thinking bad things about me again. In my mind, I know this isn’t true. I can spot the lies I tell myself much more quickly now. However, it doesn’t stop me from getting sad or wanting to quit. I asked God what I should do. I asked Him to please speak to me. I asked Him if I could just serve Him somewhere else. I asked Him if I could just take a break because I’ve got nothing left to give. Then today, I’m reading from “The Charles Stanley Life Principles Daily Bible” and on page 100 is a little note, “What the Bible Says About Provision” - based around Matthew 15:29-38, where Jesus feeds the multitudes.

“The service you do for God may be demanding and draining. You may come to the point where the only thing that can help you is His intervention because all other resources have been used up. Good. This is the perfect opportunity for God to remind you that He fuels all the ministry that is done in His name. God knows that you have run out of resources. In fact, in Matthew 6:8, Jesus tells us, “Your Father knows the things you have need of before you ask Him.” You’ve trusted Jesus for your salvation. Can’t you also trust Him to provide for the other things you need?”

And wham! There He is speaking to me! Hallelujah! And He has refilled me with the strength I asked Him for! I love Him so much! Hallelujah!