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Recently, I have been praying to be more Spirit led. I heard a sermon from James McDonald about being filled with the Holy Spirit and what that means. If I am filled with Holy Spirit, I am essentially completely controlled by Him. I become a vessel for His mind and His will and His actions. I want to be that vessel. I have wanted to be that vessel from the minute I was saved. I think I tend to over think things, making life harder than it needs to be. Overanalyzing being Spirit led, trying to force something that probably should be more natural. Somehow I came to the conclusion that I have to stop trying so hard, to let go and let God (I’m not sure if I like this statement, it seems to be so cliché). I guess I’m really coming to understand how in control God is and how not in control I am. Now I pray to be filled with the Spirit and to be able to put myself aside so He can work through me to reach those people He wants to reach. I’m really beginning to understand how I have been getting in His way, wanting to do things my way instead of submitting to His will. Funny how I have wanted nothing more than to submit to His will, but I was trying to do it in my strength. This walk with the Lord is quite challenging! Anyway, this week has been so awesome! I have been able to share the Gospel more easily because I’m not trying so hard, if that makes any sense. I want my actions to reflect Jesus Christ because He is the only One who matters. Work wasn’t too busy yesterday and I thought we would enjoy a quiet night, but God had other plans and we got a case toward the end of my shift and I felt convicted to stay and do the case and let the call person stay at home. I have been praying to be more sacrificial and He answered the prayer. I am just so thankful for His part in my life! I’m starting to realize I don’t need the praise of men to be happy because when I am obedient to the voice of the Lord, He fills me with such joy it doesn’t even compare to the praise of men! Thank You Jesus!