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How do you hear the voice of God? Sometimes I am so desperate to hear His voice, I try to force Him to speak to me. I say, “speak to me Lord because I am listening” and then I pause for about 3 seconds and when I hear nothing I figure He has nothing to say or that I wasn’t clear enough or that He didn’t hear me. I have come to realize it is me who has the problem, not God. I am like my own children when they were small and demanding my attention, “mom, mom, mom, mom, talk to me mom, pay attention to me mom, did you hear what I said mom?” It’s not that I think my children demanding my attention is a bad thing, it’s that it can be exasperating to the point of me finally shouting at them, “WHAT?” because they don’t give me a chance to think about the answer to the question, to really think about it. I want God so much to speak to me everyday that I am constantly seeking Him in His word. Sometimes I hear Him and sometimes I don’t. But my favorite way of hearing Him is the still small voice. I have a lot of trouble hearing the still small voice because I am so loud and demanding in my head and I don’t sit still long enough to wait for Him to respond. But oh when I finally hear that still small voice and understand it is the Holy Spirit, how I rejoice and am filled with so much love and respect for Him to take the time to answer me. God is so merciful and good and loving !

So I’ve had a whole lot of things on my mind recently. I learned some disturbing things about people I know and my oldest son went out of town overnight this past weekend. I spoke to my son saturday night and had a troubling conversation with him. When he came home sunday, neither one of us mentioned the conversation from the night before and things were left unresolved. I woke up this morning feeling extremely convicted for not resolving the issue with my son. I felt terrible for not even asking him how his trip was. Between this and the other things I learned about, my mind was in a fretful condition. I was praying to the Lord and asking for forgiveness and telling Him I was doing a terrible job at being a mom because I don’t think about my kids enough, that I’m too self-centered and what should I do? And then the still small voice came and said, “Seek first the Kingdom of God and all these things will be added to you.” which led me to Matthew 6 and it’s as if God said to me, “don’t worry Michelle, as long as you put Me first, I will take care of this stuff for you.” After this, I immediately went and woke up my son and asked him to forgive me for not talking to him on sunday and we resolved the issue. I’m always amazed when I hear the still small voice! My love for the Lord gets bigger everyday and there aren’t enough words to even describe how much I love Him! Hallelujah!