a revelation

i keep getting really angry at work... the whole situation just bugs me to no end... it gets me to the point of tears every time and is affecting my life outside of work to a certain degree... everything is great until i think about having to go there... so why? work is the same pretty much wherever i go... same circumstances, same cast of characters... i like what i do for the most part... i like helping people... i get to share my faith pretty regularly, which makes me happy... so what is it? i know i have to be the one who changes... i certainly can't change them...

we had a sermon on healing at church this past weekend... and the key point i forgot to hear was healing comes with forgiveness... i don't forgive people... really forgive them... i never really thought i was the kind of person to hold a grudge, but that is exactly what i've been doing... i don't hate people or stop talking to them, but i never quite let go of my anger and forgive them either... and the thing is, my brain is never going to function completely right until i learn to forgive all things of all people... until i let it go...

Matthew 6:14-15
14For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

Matthew 18:34-35
34In anger his master turned him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.

35"This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother from your heart."

Colossians 3:13
Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.