i'm in a searching mode... searching for love... searching for happiness... searching for God and faith... i went to church last night with a girl i work with... i haven't been to church in a long time, i can't even remember the last time i went... the whole religious ritual doesn't do anything for me... doesn't teach me anything... i want to learn about the history of the people in the bible, not be preached to about it... i want to understand... my friend tells me to believe and then i'll understand and i told her that i need to understand to believe... so i enjoyed this church because it wasn't the same old ritualistic conventional church, you know the kind where hymns are sung and the choir sings and the scripture is read and then there's a sermon... this was a pastor teaching a lesson and referencing the bible... it was cool... i will probably go again... i'm searching and hopefully i will find what i'm looking for...