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Consequences are the result of my sin on Monday. I was confronted about what happened and I had nowhere to run or to hide. In order to be free from the chains of sin, I know I must repent before God and I know I must seek forgiveness from the people I hurt, which I did and pray for them to be able to forgive me. I am sitting here feeling quite sad about the way this all happened and I even had bad dreams last night, which I can’t remember specifically, but I know they are a result of my sin. I woke up and spoke for satan to leave me alone by the power of Christ and slept ok the rest of the night. Yet I am still sitting here with this sadness. I wonder if I would have ever really sought forgiveness if I hadn’t been called to account? Then again, maybe that is why I was called to account? So, how do I get past this now? How do I let it go? How do I stop feeling bad? I know I have to let this go and move forward, but I am easily trapped by my brain. I prayed to God and asked Him to make me silent at work, like He made Zechariah silent when he didn’t believe the angel about Elisabeth having a child. How do I know if the sadness I’m feeling is from the Holy Spirit as conviction or from the enemy as torment? I feel lost and it’s my own fault. Thank God He is merciful and He speaks to me at just the right moments. I’m right now listening to praise music and just as I said I feel lost, a song came on saying, there is no condemnation in Christ! And now Casting Crowns singing, I once was lost but now I’m found! Thank You Father!!! I love You!!!