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I have been struggling at work now on and off for 6 months. I've just been angry and resentful and bitter about the way they treat me and everyone else for that matter. I've prayed and prayed and prayed about what to do and have heard over and over and over how I should be thanking God for His grace and remembering I'm going to heaven. I've been hearing it from the pulpit and from fellow believers and from blogs. I've just been stuck. I've known that my behavior is wrong and sinful and I've known that my witness has been compromised by my behavior and I've tried to repent and give it to God and let it go, but I haven't been able to figure out how to do it. In the meantime, I have this look on my face, it's awful and scary and I hate the way I've been behaving. My women’s Bible study group has been going through a study by James McDonald, called “Downpour”, which is really looking at sin and how to repent and return to the Lord and suddenly, like a light switch being flipped on, I realized I have been disrespectful and mean and argumentative and obstructive to all the authorities at work and I repented and prayed for the ability to just submit and to be full of respect and it's like the clouds parted and the sun is shining again and, praise God, I finally feel as if this burden has been lifted from me again (I say again because I had a similar revelation a year and a half ago) and I'm basking in the joy of the Lord and absorbing it for all it's worth because I know how my mind works and I'm praying I have come one step closer to the Lord through His sanctification!